I’ve never been happy with the way that my body looks and I know for a fact that my friends, from Middle School to current, can attest to the fact that I put myself down way too much. Now that I look at pictures of myself from pre-Madilyn, I am disgusted that I ever thought I was fat. I’m not a small person. I’m normally very muscular and athletic looking, but not fat. There IS a difference. I am super curvy and will never be “skinny” but I have some pretty awesome child bearing hips, so NAH!
Upon being put on bed rest for 3 months with Madilyn, I gained 80lbs. I kept my bad eating habits once she was born and then got pregnant with Grady 9 months later. I lost 16lbs during my first trimester with Grady and then gained a total of 25 more pounds during the rest of my pregnancy, putting me at only 9lbs over my pre-pregnancy weight. When I went for my first prenatal visit, I had lost 20lbs since having Grady but I’m still HUGE. For me at least.
I just started watching “Biggest Loser” and I weigh as much as most of the women on the show but don’t feel as though I LOOK that big. It’s pretty disgusting to me that I’ve gained so much weight and I promise that I’ll never complain about my curvy girl figure again if I can just get back down to a size 12. I’ve come to realize that the number on a scale means nothing. It’s all about how my clothing fits and how I feel. 170lbs might look like a lot of weight on some women, but it looks GOOD on me. 249, however; does not.
I just joined forces with The Sparkle Mama on a Weight Loss Challenge where the grand prize is a stash of brand new Cloth Diapers. I don’t know about you, but I need some accountability or else I will never, EVER be healthy again. (I’m staying away from the “thin” moniker because “thin” is not my goal. Healthy is.) That said, even the challenge was not enough to scare me into eating healthy. So I’m confessing my weight and pictures of myself in the most disgusting outfit known to man. Because I want to be able to post on June 6, having lost at least 10 lbs and looking a little better, and a lot closer to my goal of being healthy again.
I am currently breastfeeding so being on a “diet” is not really in the cards for me. My plan of attack is to stop eating processed sugar. No more processed sugar for the next month. I will also stay away from “whites” and eat only whole grains. When I crave something savory to eat, I will allow myself some ranch dressing and raw broccoli. When I crave sugar, I will allow myself fruit. I will eat yummy lunches like this salad. And I will exercise at least 3 times per week. By exercise, I mean walking brusquely with my stroller. I’d like to go to the gym but Madilyn will have NONE of that so walking it is.
So PLEASE subscribe and hold me accountable. Cheer me along. I’ll be posting my weight and pictures weekly and giving a synopsis about what I’ve been eating, if I’ve “cheated”, and how much exercise I’ve managed to squeeze in. And if you feel so inclined, join me.
So here’s my confession: